We started talking about weight and dieting while hanging out at the pool. Talking about dieting while in your bathing suit is never a good idea. So I lied, hoping we would move on to another subject. I told her I'm totally OK with my weight right now. Because if I said I wasn't, and wanted to lose weight, I would feel like she would be counting my glasses of wine and calories I'm consuming.
The thing is, I'm not OK with my weight or what kind of shape my body is in. But I just don't feel like doing anything about it. I hate the way I look in pictures. I have no shape. My body has changed to a middle-aged mom figure. Blaaaaaaaaah. That bites. I know what needs to be done and I just don't have the energy. No, actually I just don't want to. That's even worse.
But that's about to change. I'm going to do something soon. Right after I finish this post, and the laundry, and cleaning the house.
I think I'll join Weight Watchers again. I don't need to lose that much. Probably 10 - 12 pounds. I've done it before. It used to work like a charm. So we'll see. So that will be the diet part - the easy part. Now I need to figure out the exercise part.
Here's my dilemma. We can't afford any kind of gym membership so that's out. And we live at the top of a hill which killed my knees that last time I decided to walk/jog for exercise. So I may actually have to drive to the bottom of the hill and walk/jog on the flat part and then drive myself home. That just sounds so lame. But look at my arse in this picture? I actually went out in public in these yoga pants. Holy moly cottage cheese buns. What was I thinking? I'm sorry to all of you at the dog park that had the unfortunate view of my backside. Ay caramba.
And then there's the fair. Here I am on the swing ride with everyone lined up behind me. Lookin' ok.
And this my friends is the worst picture - ever. Holy guacamole. I can't believe I'm even showing it to you. Of course my entire family has already seen it because Don EMAILED IT to everyone. Thanks honey. Oy. Oy. Oyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. (Insert HUUUUUUUUGE sigh here.)
It's time. In fact. I'll think I'll shut down the old computer and go for a walk.
What do you do to keep in shape?
i was doing great, a year ago i actually weighed the desirable amount i had filled in when applying for my drivers license at 16. and then the steroids i was given along with my chemotherapy to keep me from withering away like the stereotypical chemo patient caused me to gain 20 pounds so now i weigh more than i ever did before. i just started ea sports active for wii which will hopefully keep me motivated enough to exercise on a regular basis and lead to some weight loss.
ReplyDeleteHi Carrie, Thanks for the feedback! Let me know how it goes with Wii.
ReplyDeleteIt's crazy how our bodies react to different situations. You gained weight from Steroids as a result of Chemo. I actually lost 15lbs a few years ago without even trying. Combination of anxiety/stress from our new business and an incredibly stressful new job, plus we moved. It was a terrible way to lose weight. And I've gained it all back. But I got down to 125 which is not a weight I can easily maintain. And don't really want to go there again. I just want to get rid of the muffin top!
My cousin Sarah, who is one of my biggest blog fans, conquered Leukemia when we were in college. She would be a good person to talk to. She's been through it all. She's now married, and has a son in high school.
And by the way, you looked awesome when I saw you at the Clever Girls party. I think we're always toughest on ourselves. You must have been REALLY skinny a year ago. If I weighed now what I weighed when I was 16 I would be living on berries. I think I weighed 98 lbs. (I was a late bloomer.)
Keep me posted on the wii thing.
Kris
Oh you crazy girl........I thought you looked great in Tahoe......you were happy and we had fun and that's what it's all about......No matter how much weight we loose or gain there will always be something we aren't thrilled with.
ReplyDeleteTake it a day at a time and don't beat yourself up. Your personality makes you such a beautiful person and it's your great and funny disposition that makes it a joy to spend time with you.
Hugs and kisses to you, Don and Elli.
Love you,
Mom
Kris you look great-no one looks good flying with a strap between their legs!! I'm looking into a new ab DVD I saw on an infomercial called Hip Hop Abs. They say you loose 3 inches around your waist in one week!! If it can do that, it's worth the $60 bucks! (of course, everyone in the commerical is like 22!!)
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